self portrait tuesday (who's checking anway)

I haven’t posted recently, mostly because I am thinking about where to go with this blog in general. I have felt for a while that I haven’t gone very deep with my entries, which I was fine with at first, but I know that the blogs I enjoy the most are the ones that let you in more to the lives of those writing them. It’s always exciting to get a glimpse of something you can relate to and to feel connected in more than one way. So many of the women who’s blogs I enjoy are mothers struggling with the same issues I do. It’s encouraging to see them accomplish so much while juggling the unpredictable and hectic days that children bring into their lives.

I also have struggled recently with how to acknowledge what is happening in the south. There is nothing I can say from my comfortable chair in my perfectly dry living room surrounded by my things and the people I love that could in any way do justice to what happened, or that has not been said much more eloquently by someone else. Yet, writing more pithy hoorays for the latest stuff animal I’ve made doesn’t feel right either. I started this as a way to share that aspect of me, but it is more entwined with the rest of my life than I had thought, and I think this blog should reflect that. So from now on I think you may find more of my musings here than before, despite how self indulgent that feels to me.

So, to kick start my new journey, I would like to express my gratitude to Kath at red current for checking out my blog and inviting me to her web site, selfportraituesday.blogspot.com. My previous self portraits were mere mimicry of what I saw other people doing on their blogs, and I am excited about taking it a step further and having a deeper purpose with them. This is my first offering in that vein:

I have been musing recently on my age and how to achieve a physical representation that reflects who I am on the inside, so the body part assignment is good for me. I took this picture because I spend so much time looking at my toes, and I have realized recently that they show my age more than any other part of me, mostly because they are so tan. This southern california lifestyle has it’s draw backs. It reminds me that I need to take care of myself, but also that I miss my northwest way of life where worrying about tanning was something you did just in august, if you were lucky. I never expected to be in LA as long as we have been and I spend a lot of time trying to decided how I feel about it. Another thing about this picture though, despite evidence to the contrary, is that I love getting a pedicure, something I would have laughed at someone for doing when I lived in portland. I've grown up a bit in the last few years. I guess living here has aged me in more ways than one.

:)

Comments

[kath]

i am checking thanks for keeping posting
am adding you to selfportraittuesday.blogspot.com

[Sarah]

I saw your portrait on the Self-Portrait Tuesday blog. The others were so contrived, but yours really caught my eye. Sure it's toes, but the composition is more than just toes. Well done!